Gone are the days of Colby and I telling McKaid what to do.........All of the pictures loaded backwards and I am way to lazy to fix it. McKaid has always, ALWAYS (did I say that twice) been a very independent person. Which don't get me wrong is great.....EXCEPT when he turned 18! McKaid turned 18 on the 18th of August, and shortly after his birthday he MOVED OUT!!! I had a hard enough time with him being old enough to graduate, now he is responsible for everything, on his own......I had a complete break down, I really just wanted to check out and not deal with any of it and Colby has been so OK with it all. I told Colby a few days later I figured out why I had such a hard time with it all......I had been McKaid's mom longer than I had been anything else in my life...I know I am still his mom but he just didn't need me any longer. That was a tough pill to swallow.
McKaid told us on a Friday night that he would be moving out to a house he rented in Spanish Fork, he said it would be that next weekend. So he was giving me a week to prepare, I came home from a meeting on Tuesday and he had the truck on the front lawn with some of his friends loading everything up. I sat in the car for about 45 minutes just crying.....where did the little baby go, McKaid's entire life past through all of the tears. Yesterday I had him, how could he be moving out. Did I teach him enough, does he know what we expect from him, does he know how to cook, do laundry, clean a house, pay bills, the list was endless. We have made it about 7 weeks and I have to say he seems to be doing just fine, he is eating, cleaning, and even wearing clean clothes. Our family dynamic has changed and I can see he and Colby's relationship only getting stronger. It still kills me every time he leaves our house, and I haven't stopped worrying about him, I just have new worries. :)
This is when McKaid was probably about 14 out duck hunting with Sophie. I could tell him how to cut his hair at that age.
This is him with his "albino trout" he caught at Salem Pond. I think he was 7 in this picture, he let me do everything for him at that age.
McKaid and his "horse" he was two in this picture, he loved that horse he would spend hours riding it. Shortly after this picture was taken that he ended up getting his first set of stitches. The horse bucked him off.
He was 18 months in this picture we where in California at my grandparents house having one of his many surgeries.
This is right after his 1st birthday, with Grandpa Larsen they brought him up to us in Montana when we found a house. He LOVED Colby's hat, the second he would walk in the door McKaid had that and would not take it off.
He was about 5 months old in this picture this was right after his 2nd surgery. My mom called and said it was school picture day at school and to bring McKaid over to get his pictures done. I remember sitting in her classroom with the gel and trying to tame his curls......he looked so cute. I remember sending Colby one of the pictures while he was in basic and his comment was why did you dress him like that-- Gone are those days. Time goes was to quick make sure that you take every day and every moment you can with your kids because it just goes way to fast. I know I would give anything to have my little kid back. I am so proud of the young man that he has grown up to be, I am proud of the choices he is making, and way he lives his life. I am so glad that he has such a strong work ethic, and a heart of gold. I love him with all of my heart and miss having him around each day. We all love you Kaid~
McKaid told us on a Friday night that he would be moving out to a house he rented in Spanish Fork, he said it would be that next weekend. So he was giving me a week to prepare, I came home from a meeting on Tuesday and he had the truck on the front lawn with some of his friends loading everything up. I sat in the car for about 45 minutes just crying.....where did the little baby go, McKaid's entire life past through all of the tears. Yesterday I had him, how could he be moving out. Did I teach him enough, does he know what we expect from him, does he know how to cook, do laundry, clean a house, pay bills, the list was endless. We have made it about 7 weeks and I have to say he seems to be doing just fine, he is eating, cleaning, and even wearing clean clothes. Our family dynamic has changed and I can see he and Colby's relationship only getting stronger. It still kills me every time he leaves our house, and I haven't stopped worrying about him, I just have new worries. :)
This is when McKaid was probably about 14 out duck hunting with Sophie. I could tell him how to cut his hair at that age.
This is him with his "albino trout" he caught at Salem Pond. I think he was 7 in this picture, he let me do everything for him at that age.
McKaid and his "horse" he was two in this picture, he loved that horse he would spend hours riding it. Shortly after this picture was taken that he ended up getting his first set of stitches. The horse bucked him off.
He was 18 months in this picture we where in California at my grandparents house having one of his many surgeries. 
This is right after his 1st birthday, with Grandpa Larsen they brought him up to us in Montana when we found a house. He LOVED Colby's hat, the second he would walk in the door McKaid had that and would not take it off.
He was about 5 months old in this picture this was right after his 2nd surgery. My mom called and said it was school picture day at school and to bring McKaid over to get his pictures done. I remember sitting in her classroom with the gel and trying to tame his curls......he looked so cute. I remember sending Colby one of the pictures while he was in basic and his comment was why did you dress him like that-- Gone are those days. Time goes was to quick make sure that you take every day and every moment you can with your kids because it just goes way to fast. I know I would give anything to have my little kid back. I am so proud of the young man that he has grown up to be, I am proud of the choices he is making, and way he lives his life. I am so glad that he has such a strong work ethic, and a heart of gold. I love him with all of my heart and miss having him around each day. We all love you Kaid~ 
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You should be proud, Erika. He is a great kid.
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